But what if i need you baby,
would you even try to save me,
or would you find some lame excuse, to never be true,
What if i said i loved you,
would you be the one to run to,
or would you watch me walk away,
without a fight.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Girl in dream
She searched for a way out
But the darkness swallowed her
She can’t speak, she can’t see
She looked for anything to keep her away from the darkness
Then she saw a light but the light is hot
The heat hurts as she falls further into it
Then she sees a man, the most beautiful man that anyone could ever imagine
He is laughing, but the girl doesn’t understand why
He comes towards her as she reaches out
He grabs her hand but his hold is too strong
He tells her that this is her fate
Then she understands
He is telling her that the hell she lived in on earth has come and taken her away
He leaves and she was left alone burning, crying for help
Then I awake and notice that it was just a dream
I am scared to move
My heart is beating faster and faster as I remember who the beautiful man was
Lucifer the most beautiful angel had come into my dreams
He brought me to experience in just the smallest way his world
I try to figure out what all of this means
I try to remember if I knew the girl
Then as I get up, get ready, and walk outside
I see the girl
She is standing at my door asking for help
I help her and talk to her
It was like we were the same person
We developed a friendship over time
And I told her about my dream years later
She was speechless
We talked about it for hours
She asked questions by the hundreds
As we talked she sobbed
She realized where the rest of her family really was
She prayed right there, without a second thought she knew where she wanted to go
She became a great teacher
She taught college professors at such a young age about the bible
And when her life ended we all knew where she was and always will be
And I swear I saw the light come on her when she left us
But the darkness swallowed her
She can’t speak, she can’t see
She looked for anything to keep her away from the darkness
Then she saw a light but the light is hot
The heat hurts as she falls further into it
Then she sees a man, the most beautiful man that anyone could ever imagine
He is laughing, but the girl doesn’t understand why
He comes towards her as she reaches out
He grabs her hand but his hold is too strong
He tells her that this is her fate
Then she understands
He is telling her that the hell she lived in on earth has come and taken her away
He leaves and she was left alone burning, crying for help
Then I awake and notice that it was just a dream
I am scared to move
My heart is beating faster and faster as I remember who the beautiful man was
Lucifer the most beautiful angel had come into my dreams
He brought me to experience in just the smallest way his world
I try to figure out what all of this means
I try to remember if I knew the girl
Then as I get up, get ready, and walk outside
I see the girl
She is standing at my door asking for help
I help her and talk to her
It was like we were the same person
We developed a friendship over time
And I told her about my dream years later
She was speechless
We talked about it for hours
She asked questions by the hundreds
As we talked she sobbed
She realized where the rest of her family really was
She prayed right there, without a second thought she knew where she wanted to go
She became a great teacher
She taught college professors at such a young age about the bible
And when her life ended we all knew where she was and always will be
And I swear I saw the light come on her when she left us
How do you know?
Who’s the boy in the back of your mind?
Why is he always there?
Why does he take over your thoughts until you cannot think of anything else?
Why does your world revolve around him?
Is it love or just infatuation?
You go to sleep at night and he is all you dream about
Why do you always want him near?
Why does it feel like you need him more than anyone?
Why do you feel like you can’t live without him?
Why no matter how much he hates you can you not give him up?
Why when he asks, “do you wanna go out?” does your heart fly?
Why when you start getting closer do you want everything from him?
Is it superficial or something so much more?
You claim to love him and he later says I love you too
But how are you sure?
What if you mess up your life and make a huge mistake?
You say you will marry this guy so young
But that is such a slim chance
And someone will end get hurt
If you start doing things what happens to that future man?
The one that will truly and forever love you
What if you forsake his trust?
You take away the most loving act from him
You say to him I was so young
But how does he know you won’t do it again
How does he know he can fully trust you?
How does he know that you won’t forsake him again?
He doesn’t, does he?
He lives with your mistake but it tears both of you apart inside
He is the man that is perfect for you
And you’re the perfect woman for him
But you took away everything from him
Even when he says he has forgiven you and forgotten everything he is crying out for help
He is wishing you had saved yourself for him
And it kills a part of you and him
He wishes that you could have given him all of your heart when you only had a small bit left to give
As you grow older he is happy on the outside but dead on the inside
You try to do everything you can to make it up to him
But there is nothing you can do to get your most special and sacred gift back
You may have been 16 and didn’t think there were consequences when there are
You could lose the man who was made just for you
You may end up living a hard life knowing how you missed out
Because he is the only one you truly loved and who truly loved you
Why is he always there?
Why does he take over your thoughts until you cannot think of anything else?
Why does your world revolve around him?
Is it love or just infatuation?
You go to sleep at night and he is all you dream about
Why do you always want him near?
Why does it feel like you need him more than anyone?
Why do you feel like you can’t live without him?
Why no matter how much he hates you can you not give him up?
Why when he asks, “do you wanna go out?” does your heart fly?
Why when you start getting closer do you want everything from him?
Is it superficial or something so much more?
You claim to love him and he later says I love you too
But how are you sure?
What if you mess up your life and make a huge mistake?
You say you will marry this guy so young
But that is such a slim chance
And someone will end get hurt
If you start doing things what happens to that future man?
The one that will truly and forever love you
What if you forsake his trust?
You take away the most loving act from him
You say to him I was so young
But how does he know you won’t do it again
How does he know he can fully trust you?
How does he know that you won’t forsake him again?
He doesn’t, does he?
He lives with your mistake but it tears both of you apart inside
He is the man that is perfect for you
And you’re the perfect woman for him
But you took away everything from him
Even when he says he has forgiven you and forgotten everything he is crying out for help
He is wishing you had saved yourself for him
And it kills a part of you and him
He wishes that you could have given him all of your heart when you only had a small bit left to give
As you grow older he is happy on the outside but dead on the inside
You try to do everything you can to make it up to him
But there is nothing you can do to get your most special and sacred gift back
You may have been 16 and didn’t think there were consequences when there are
You could lose the man who was made just for you
You may end up living a hard life knowing how you missed out
Because he is the only one you truly loved and who truly loved you
How could you end up with him?
How did you end up with him?
You could never have thought that you would
He is sweeter than any guy you could know
His eyes draw you toward him
You don’t deserve him and you know it too
He says you’re perfect, you’re beautiful
But you just tell him that he is just lying to himself
His lips call to you
You want more and more
Your thoughts are filled with him
You can’t sleep at night
You can’t think straight
You can’t help but want him
He is above any standard you could ever make
He is everything you want in a guy
But you’re always thinking, what if he doesn’t want me?
What if he will dump me when another girl comes along?
The doubt fills your mind and you try to do everything you can to keep him
But he never will leave
He always wanted you and you alone
But why is this subject so hard for you to retain?
He is in love with you
And you’re in love with him too
He wants to hold you tighter but you keep pulling away
You don’t want anything more than to have him hold you
But you aren’t sure why he would want you
You’re nothing special
You’re nothing unique
But he loves you more than anything
And he can’t explain it and neither can you
But you ended up with each other and forever you will love each other
You could never have thought that you would
He is sweeter than any guy you could know
His eyes draw you toward him
You don’t deserve him and you know it too
He says you’re perfect, you’re beautiful
But you just tell him that he is just lying to himself
His lips call to you
You want more and more
Your thoughts are filled with him
You can’t sleep at night
You can’t think straight
You can’t help but want him
He is above any standard you could ever make
He is everything you want in a guy
But you’re always thinking, what if he doesn’t want me?
What if he will dump me when another girl comes along?
The doubt fills your mind and you try to do everything you can to keep him
But he never will leave
He always wanted you and you alone
But why is this subject so hard for you to retain?
He is in love with you
And you’re in love with him too
He wants to hold you tighter but you keep pulling away
You don’t want anything more than to have him hold you
But you aren’t sure why he would want you
You’re nothing special
You’re nothing unique
But he loves you more than anything
And he can’t explain it and neither can you
But you ended up with each other and forever you will love each other
Ridge Center Week
Wow where do i start? I can't say i loved the waking up early part during this wk. but I can say that the kids are a blessing on every one's lives. The first day I walked in the kids were immediately loving. They didn't care that they didn't even know who the heck you were they just knew you were there for them and they were just so excited! The second day was even better than the first. Yes , i did sit on a sponge , and I had kids laughin all day when i walked by and they saw that like 3 hours later i still had a wet butt ha ha, but they were so fun! I even got out 2 kids in kickball lol... I never seem to be able to do that with kids my own age lol! I could do a day by day analysis.... but I can't seem to summarize the events because they were so amazing and full of so many fun events. The second they saw a camera their eyes were glued. I couldn't help but take pictures of all of them haha, I even hung one up in my room to remind me of this week. I left the vbs with like 4, 5 yr. old boyfriends, and I was told I was married which kinda caught me off guard because i never found out who this person was i was supposedly married to lol, but this week was def. an amazing week... I couldnt ask for a better way to spend it than to be with those kids. And I think I honestly found out what I want to do as an adult. The Ridge Center wk. definately touched my life and I am sure it touched many others. I hope i get to return to the ridgecenter someday.... They may not know it but those kids have touched my life more than anyone ever has and i am pretty sure they will continue to touch many others in the years to come.
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